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A Funeral for Autonomous Source

Most blogs just fade away. The bloggers lose interest and post less frequently, and the readers drift away to find livelier destinations. Eventually their hosting is canceled, the URL is taken by squatters, and all that remains of a person's thoughts and their passions is some residue on the Wayback Machine.

Blogs are going to die. There's no avoiding that. People change, their responsibilities change, they want to move on. It happens all the time. But I don't think people should let their abandoned blogs live on as undead internet orphans. They should kill them; and show them no mercy. If they make it quick there's no pain. Then they can have a funeral for their blog, raise a glass to its memory, bury it and move on. That's what I'm going to do.

I've mostly enjoyed working on this blog, and I'm proud of the writing I did. When I look back at things I wrote in my 20's and early 30's, I frequently cringe. But nothing in the archives of this blog has that effect. I've never deleted a post and I stand proudly behind it all. There's some great stuff there that can still make me smile.

As I was staying home and looking after my children, the blog became an important outlet for my creative energies. It was a doorway into a community and was a place to air my frustrations. After a day of chaos, it was nice to have at least created something -- a post! -- that had a semblance of permanence and was the product of intelligence and inspiration. It was important to have something interesting to roll over in my mind as I wrestled with the many more mundane matters that required my attention.

As Captain Destructo and the Mistress of Chaos got older however, life became much less mundane and my intelligence and inspiration were now always in demand. Blogging became more difficult -- and more frustrating. Even with various schools and daycares taking them off my hands for very welcome breaks, there was less free time and more interruptions.

As well, I was trying to communicate more complex ideas and frequently I found myself unable say everything I wanted. Blogging can take a lot of work if you want to do it well. I'm a harsh critic of others, but I'm much harder on myself. I want to be able to back up my claims and not just throw out gut opinions. And that requires research.

Simply put, I've been wasting too much time and energy on this thing. Even when I try to ignore it, the blog still has a claim on my thoughts and distorts how I interact with the world. And if it isn't the blog, it's the blogosphere. I've spent far too much time monitoring the war of words about the war, or capitalism, or political strategies, or whatever. But no more. It's over. Hugo Chavez, Stephane Dion, Mahmoud Ahmadinejad and Jeffrey Simpson are not going to be in my thoughts. I'm not going to read long comment threads arguing about geo-political events.

I'm not abandoning what I believe in. I'll still browse the blogs and scan the papers. I'll still work with the local Conservative riding association. And I'll still continue to share my opinions and thoughts with acquaintances. But those things are not going to be a big part of my life.

I'm 42, my kids are moving into school full time next year, and I've got to move on. I'm going to concentrate on things I have influence over and that are important in my life: my home, my family, and my friends. And myself. The business idea I mentioned a while ago still has possibilities -- or maybe I'll just get a job. It would be so relaxing to be sipping coffee in a cube again...

So. Grab a shovel and toss some dirt on the grave. Or just spit on it, if you like. Raise a glass and make a toast, or roll your eyes and walk away. I'm done here, and though there's so much left unsaid, it still feels good.

Here's a goodbye song that is almost too apropos:


This blog will lie in state for a couple of months, to be eventually replaced by a valuable resource in aid of those suffering the heartbreak of erectile dysfunction.

UPDATE (two days later): Thanks for the kind words. There certainly is an element of attention seeking in blogging -- and in shutting it down -- so it's all very much appreciated.

The transition to the new lifestyle is not going as smoothly as I hoped. I'm still battling the urge to call "bullshit!" on stupid things I read, and still spending too much time reading unimportant stuff. But I'll get there.

I appreciate the offers to post on other blogs, and I may make use of them in the future. But for now I'm on the wagon.

Aaagh! I'm blogging! Now I gotta go do penance...

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Comments

Thats too bad and I'll miss it. You can however if the bug hits always come over and play at my place.

RIP brother. The blog was an entertaining lodestar of comment sense.

Sorry to see you go. Good luck in your life ahead.

Sieg

Noooooooooooooooooooo!

The needs of the blog outweigh the needs of the few. Or the one. =)

Mitchieville will miss you, too. Like Darcey said, if the bug hits, you are welcome to throw up a post whenever you like.

Here's to you, Bruce!

Sorry to see you go dark, I always enjoyed your posts, even the 'homey' ones about your kids. It's nice to read a blog that isn't always outrage and indignation.

Best of luck,
r.

I was going to say that if the bug hits, you are welcome to post on our site whenever you like. This quitting blogging thing is like a love goldmine. Better than, say, suggesting that I could have done something better with my life for the past four years than blogging.

I was going to say that if the bug hits you are welcome to post on our blog whenever you like. This quit blogging thing is like a love goldmine. Better than, say, suggesting I could have done something better with my life for the past four years than blogging.

I suppose I'll have to grow up sometime and give up the blog too but it has been fun reading you. Thanks and Don't be a stranger.

I guess it's all in the art of stopping.

I will miss the humour and sense of this blog!

It was interesting to read while it lasted. Thanks and good luck.

Of course I now get to reap all of the humour, intelligence and outrage that were previously directed at this source. The blog is dead, long live the blogger. I get to love him all the time!

I actually haven't checked your blog in a while, and here in my boredom i've stumbled onto its last post. It sucks but blogging does sap so much time, that and msn, facebook, ugh the list goes on. They are all really annoying.

I see you want a wii for x-mas eh? I have Mario Galaxy, its bloody fantastic, ill have to bring the wii over again sometime soon.

Long live the blogger!

best of luck channeling energies elsewhere!

This kind of sucks...I was able to keep up with the kids this way! Best of luck!

Hey, thanks for letting us know. :) Best of luck in your future endeavors.

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